Broken heart

Palestine, Gaza, the West Bank, Israel

Map of Gaza showing urban areas, refugee camps, border crossings, and the Israeli-declared buffer zone. The Mediterranean Sea borders the 41 kilometer (25 mile) long northeast border of Gaza; Egypt is on the 10km (6 mile) southeast border; and Israel is along the southwest and northwest border.

It is with a broken heart that I watch what is happening in the Middle East, the latest iteration of a seemingly endless cycle of violence and destruction that has been occurring for longer than I've been alive. For me, the saddest aspect of this is the huge number of civilians on all sides that have been caught up in these cycles of violence for decades, killed, maimed, displaced.

I absolutely condemn the atrocious act of terrorism perpetrated by Hamas primarily against innocent Israeli civilians on October 7, 2023, killing 1,164 and wounding more than 5,000, and by holding more than 250 of them hostage, 100 of whom are still held hostage as I write this. I also condemn that Hamas continues to espouse the goal of destroying Israel.

However, after October 7, 2023 and over the subsequent weeks, months, and now more than a year, I have grown increasingly horrified by Israel's retaliatory war and the way it so blatantly disregards the lives and welfare of Palestinian civilians in attacks that killed more than 40,000 in the first year alone, likely many more, and that have displaced as much as 90% of the more than two million people living in Gaza.

Most civilians in Gaza are without adequate clean water, food, sanitation, and medical care. Israel continuously directs them to leave certain areas into other areas that are supposed to be safe zones, but then has bombed those areas, killing displaced civilians. In one year, more than 60% of Gaza's buildings have been damaged or destroyed, including most of its hospitals, universities, and schools.

I also am appalled by the way the Israeli so-called "settlers" are killing and displacing Palestinians in the West Bank, and the way the Israeli government is forcibly displacing Palestinians from East Jerusalem.

Of course, the roots of this current war go back more than a century. For details, jump down to Alternative timeline ∨.

This must end. We must find a path forward towards peaceful coexistence.

My heart is with the ordinary civilians who all deserve dignified and safe lives.

Update, December 21, 2025

It's obvious that Israel has no intention to honor any ceasefire or any internationally recognized rights of the Palestinian people. It's simply horrifying. My heart is broken and broken and broken again, day after day.

In early October 2023, I grieved for the 1,200 Israelis, mostly innocent civilians including children, who were brutally murdered by Hamas, the more than 5,000 Israelis who were wounded, the 250 Israelis who were taken hostage.

But every day since then I've been grieving for the tens of thousands of Palestinians (more than 70,000 by the end of 2025}, mostly innocent civilians including so many children, who have been killed by Israel, bombed and shot in their homes, schools, hospitals, shelters, and even in their ragged tents in the awful refugee camps, and who are hungry, some even starving to death, and who are dealing with miserable cold, wet weather in inadequate shelters, some even dying from hypothermia.

When will we begin to move forward towards a better future?

Yesterday (Dec 20, 2025), I read this: Israeli troops kill six Palestinians sheltering in Gaza school, say hospital chiefs: Attack brings total number of Palestinians killed by Israel to 401 since October ceasefire took effect⩘  by William Christou, The Guardian. Ceasefire? Really? Israel has broken the ceasefire hundreds of times already.

Two days ago, I read this: Israel bombs Gaza wedding as mediators hold ceasefire talks in US: Israeli attack kills at least six Palestinians attending wedding party at school-turned-shelter in Gaza City.⩘  by Al Jazeera Staff and news agencies, Dec 19, 2025.

Last week I read about Israel's ongoing ill treatment of Palestinians living in the West Bank: An ancient Palestinian town in the West Bank may soon no longer exist – because Israel plans on stealing it⩘  by Felix Nobes, Mondoweiss.

The ancient Palestinian town of Sebastia in the northern West Bank is a testament to 5,000 years of Palestinian history. Israel announced that it plans to seize the village and its archaeological sites.

This morning, I read this: Israeli Cabinet approves 19 new Jewish settlements in the occupied West Bank⩘  by Melanie Lidman, The Associated Press.

Settlements are widely considered illegal under international law. The approval comes as the U.S. is pushing Israel and Hamas to move ahead with the new phase of the Gaza ceasefire, which took effect Oct. 10. The U.S.-brokered plan calls for a possible “pathway” to a Palestinian state – something the settlements are aimed at preventing.

Almost every day I read about Palestinians in Gaza suffering from hunger and malnutrition even as Israel continues to limit the amount of food aid that gets into Gaza. Right now, hundreds of thousands of Palestinians are living in substandard tents in the cold of winter with torrential rains soaking everything and turning the ground into a muddy morass because Israel destroyed almost all the housing in Gaza and yet still obstructs aid agencies from even delivering adequate amounts of better quality tents.

When will we begin to move forward towards a better future?

Something different, something better is possible

'We've got more in common than what divides us': a Muslim-Jewish kitchen in Nottingham counters hate and hunger⩘  by Lucy Knight, The Guardian, Dec 21, 2025.

As antisemitism and Islamophobia rise, a community centre brings people together over shared meals, offering an antidote to food poverty, social isolation and division.…

This is the Salaam Shalom kitchen, known as SaSh, a joint Muslim-Jewish project set up in 2015, and based on one of the core tenets of both faith groups: bringing people together through food.…

Although at leadership level Muslims and Jews had been working together on interfaith projects for years, when it came to "the congregations, the community groups, families, parents, children, our communities were not connected," the charity leader explains. It just so happened that Himmah had already been considering setting up a hot meal provision in Hyson Green, home to Nottingham's largest ethnic minority population – and also home to a historic Jewish cemetery. It seemed like the perfect project with which to bring both faith communities together, with Mohammed recruiting in volunteers from Himmah, and Sakhnovich from the synagogue, to provide a service that "demonstrates our shared values of dignity, justice and service to our communities," he says.…

Of all the projects that Himmah runs, Mohammed hopes if he is remembered for anything it will be SaSh. "It's a project of immense hope," he says. "And we live in some dark, dark times. Times that many of us, people of colour, the Jewish and Muslim communities, had thought we would never see again in this country." As both Islamophobia and antisemitism continue to rise, it has been helpful that "even through the trauma of everything going on, that we have people who are from similar and different backgrounds to share the experience with," Chipman adds. The strong relationships and the conversations between the Jewish and Muslim communities "never stop" even "when everything's feeling a bit hopeless," she says. It's "a very local hands-on way where you can make a difference".

The Future Is Peace⩘  by Aziz Abu Sarah & Maoz Inon, 2026.

   While our friendship is unusual, we are not unique. The two of us are part of a growing coalition of Israelis and Palestinians, working locally and globally to build a bridge to a shared future. Together, we are creating a new story. We do not see ourselves as Palestinians and Israelis, or as Jews and Arabs, but as human beings who believe in fostering a culture of dialogue, a culture of forgiveness, a culture of peace. To those who see only division lines, we say: If you must divide us, let it be as those who believe in peace and equality and those who don't … yet.

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Ongoing reflections – Year 3

A note about the timeline

Each entry in these ongoing reflections is introduced with the date the item was published, followed by the number of days since Hamas carried out its act of terrorism on October 7, 2023 and Israel retaliated with its full-scale war on Gaza. However, it would be reasonable to list alternate dates for the start of this ongoing war that, counting from October 7, 2023, would add between 16 and 141 years (adapted from the Israeli–Palestinian conflict⩘  article in Wikipedia).

For details, jump down to: Alternative timeline ∨ 

See also: Before October 7th: Understanding the Long History of Israel's Assault on Gaza⩘  by Independent Jewish Voices Canada (IJV), Sep 27, 2024. IJV is "a grassroots organization grounded in Jewish tradition that opposes all forms of racism and advocates for justice and peace for all in Israel-Palestine".


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Historical perspective

Palestine, Israel and International Law⩘ , written evidence, UK Parliament Foreign Affairs Committee Inquiry, 'The Israeli-Palestinian conflict', submitted by Dr Ralph Wilde, Professor of International Law, University College London (IPC0022), dated Dec 25, 2024, published Feb 18, 2025.

Dr Wilde's insightful paper covers twelve points, beginning with:

  1. More than century-long denial of self-determination of, and war against, the Palestinian people, on the basis of racism.

The Palestinian people have been denied the exercise of their legal right to self-determination through the more-than century-long violent, colonial, racist effort to establish a nation-state exclusively for the Jewish people in the land of Mandatory Palestine.

When this began in earnest after the First World War, the Jewish population there was 11 per cent. Forcibly implementing Zionism in this demographic context has necessarily involved the extermination, or forced displacement, of some of the non-Jewish Palestinian population; the exercise of domination over, and subjugation, dispossession and immiseration of, remaining non-Jewish Palestinians; the emigration to that land of Jewish people, regardless of any direct personal link; and the denial of Palestinian refugees the right to return. All operating through a racist distinction privileging Jewish people over non-Jewish Palestinian people.

This has necessitated serious violations of all the fundamental rules of international law: the right of self-determination; the prohibitions of aggression, genocide, crimes against humanity, racial discrimination, apartheid, and torture; and the core protections of international humanitarian law.

Dr Wilde's paper goes on to cover the following points:

  1. Palestinian self-determination under Article 22 of the League of Nations Covenant
  2. Self-determination in international law after the Second World War—an additional right
  3. Nakba in 1948—violation of self-determination, and creation of a regime involving an ongoing violation of this right, as well as racial discrimination and apartheid, and a denial of the right to return
  4. 1967 Israeli capture of the Palestinian Gaza Strip and West Bank
  5. Illegal racial domination—apartheid—from the Jordan River to the Mediterranean Sea
  6. Gaza Strip and West Bank as Palestinian territory—consequently, Israel's purported annexation, and attempted colonization, are illegal
  7. Self-determination as a right to be self-governing, requiring the occupation to end immediately
  8. The occupation as an illegal use of force in the law on the use of force
  9. Legal right to resist vested in the Palestinian people
  10. Illegal force does not become lawful in response to resistance to it
  11. Israel cannot lawfully use force to control the Palestinian territory for security purposes/pending a peace agreement

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A note about the timeline

Each entry in these ongoing reflections is introduced with the date the item was published, followed by the number of days since Hamas carried out its act of terrorism on October 7, 2023 and Israel retaliated with its full-scale war on Gaza. However, it would be reasonable to list alternate dates for the start of this ongoing war that, counting from October 7, 2023, would add between 16 and 141 years (adapted from the Israeli–Palestinian conflict⩘  article in Wikipedia).

Alternative timeline

See also: Before October 7th: Understanding the Long History of Israel's Assault on Gaza⩘  by Independent Jewish Voices Canada (IJV), Sep 27, 2024. IJV is "a grassroots organization grounded in Jewish tradition that opposes all forms of racism and advocates for justice and peace for all in Israel-Palestine".


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